Things I wish I Could Tell Them…
These are all the things I wish I could tell my dad and sister who committed suicide..
Being in grief is like sitting in your very own personalized room of darkness and hell.. Some days we sit in a sinkhole of despair, changing into many costumes that Grief offers us. Grief is not only sadness. It is not just despair. It is anger. It is frustration, insecurities and helplessness. Grief wears many […]
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I fall and fall down an abyss of despairHave I gone too deep on the wrong end?Is there no light shining through?Have I left parts of me at the bottom of the world?I look around in darkness,Groping around searching for the lost piecesFor I know I am missing quite a few Because I feel lighter […]
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I distinctly remember my younger self sometimes. The confused and scared 21 year old. I remember telling myself I MUST have learned all the things I need to know to get through this. I remember feeling frustrated, angry and jealous of my friends and people around me. That they had people and things that I […]
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This breaks my heart This breaks my soulThis breaks the purpose of my existence. I continue to walk as a ghost in the midst of people.Forever surrendering to the divine and hoping for a releaseA sweet release. Waiting for the day the pain will ceaseTill then I will move in this worldLost and scaredNot today […]
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There are millions of positive notes of encouragement in this worldMillions of self help booksMillions of influencersMillions of inspiring songsMillions of art moving us to tearsMillions of life-changing places we could visitMillions of trees and animals we could grow and loveMillions of food we can eat and enjoy Yet..Why is it so hard to heal […]
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I have enjoyed scary movies since I was a little kid. My mom told me that I used to watch a particular scary movie in Telugu – Jaganmohini when i was only 7 years old. I remember the character dressed in all white with long black hair eating levitating food. I loved reading Goosebumps and […]
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I wonder sometimes if I would have been a different person if my life was different. Would I have been stronger or would I have been weaker. Would I have appreciated things less since I didn’t lose very important things in life. Would I have worried about the little things? I believe we are the […]
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I believe in heart, mind, body and soul. I believe that the heart needs to be kept alive by being with the people we loveBy surrounding ourselves with love and compassionBy making someone smileBy showing patienceBy talking to animalsBy looking at the trees and feeling connected with every single thing in this worldI believe that […]
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Have you ever seen someone you love give up. Have you begged them to get up and moveHave you tried to make them smile even though you are hurting inside. Tried to make them see the good things in lifeTried to reason with them that all is not bad.Show them the rising sun and the […]
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I could cry for 5 hours or 5 seconds.Ask me to cry from my left eye alone or make each eye shed a single tear.I could cry till the snow melts or the leaves turn to green.There are so many ways I could cry. I could cry even when I am in the middle of […]
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